I decided to leave as much of my armour as I could at home today.
Wearing makeup gives me an extra layer of emotional defense in my sessions because I don’t want to look obviously emotional if I, say, cry. But today I left it all off my face and entered therapy with willingness and hope if not my usual anxiety.
My therapist reminded me that he is on my team and here to back me up as I untangle my webs and learn to value my emotional needs.
It’s hard to hear that some one is there for me – hard to trust it – but it’s really nice to hear.